Aiiight…. So here it is… This is something that I have been battling with for a long time and as I was reading the Word today (Ephesians 5) I just felt that there was something I needed to do… Some “unfinished business”, you might say… ITS LONG BUT I CHALLENGE YOU TO READ IT ALL THE WAY THROUGH!!!

Ephesians 5 talks about the “Full Life”. Well, I want to share a few things on my mind and then I am going to get REALLY real with ya’ll.

There is more to life than getting drunk, doin drugs, havin sex, gossiping about the person next to us, sittin in a church pew, singin on a worship team and hey… even preachin from the pulpit!!!! There are so many things that we THIINK are “just the way things are” so to speak…

Ya see, God wants us to follow HIS will and plan for our lives (Jeremiah 29:11-13); NOT OURS!!! ~ can I say something real right here…?? ok… THAT SUCKS!!!!! Seriously! We want to be able to do our own thing, say our own thing be our OWN person. ESPECIALLY when we are young. We are untouchable. The worse thing about it is we don’t even get it. We think life is about our friends, hangin out, shootin the breeze and just livin life day by day… THERE IS MORE TO IT THAN THAT!

It bugs me SO much when I look at my life every day and see that I am/feel I am going nowhere… YEAH, I have traveled to 18 countires, over 4 continents, every province in Canada and well over 30 states in the US. I have ministered in the jungle of Africa and wept on a church floor in Lloydminster, Alberta. I have watched friends get hurt and friends be blessed… BUT… there is always still something that is jussssssst not right sometimes… Ya start to feel/see it when you begin to live YOUR life and not the life God has called ya to.

Ok so here it is… Ephesians 5 talks specifically about loving our enemies, avoiding sexual impurity, greed and obscene speech… Just so we don’t get confused, let me break that last one down for ya… (by the way this is to myself just as much if not more than the next guy) OBSCENE SPEECH = cussin, dirty talk, foolish talk about nothing, gossip, slandering, and the likes… let me break it down EVEN FURTHER… no “F” bombs, no “G.D.’s”, no butt holes, no “guess what my girlfriend did with me (shouldn’t be doin it anyways so if ya weren’t ya wouldn’t have to talk about it), and so on…

Why am I comin down hard? I FREAKIN LOVE YOU!!!! CHRIST LOVES YOU… PLUS, I’m sick of just livin everyday life… I know tomorrow I might do everything I have said not to do today… THE BIG PICTURE THOUGH is that we STRIVE to PRESS ON and change each day to become more like Christ…

So… in saying all that, I’m gonna break things down to a personal level aiiiiight!!! Here it goes.

To those of you whom I have considered an enemy OR you consider yourself MY enemy ~ I’m sorry. For anything I have ever done or said that has caused this relational DEATH between us. Please forgive me and if you are willing to take it to the next step, contact me and let me know how I let you down or how you feel our relationship is what it is… I want/need to make things right. Whether or not you did anything wrong, I can only do what I can do. So, you know who you are, (I don’t) I love ya and I am sorry.

To those at Living Faith Pentecostal Tabernacle in Lloydminster, Alberta… man, what a time we had with you guys for almost three years… Good times, bad times, etc. BUT, we left with not really ANY relationships with any of you. Some, yes and you know who you are… BUT most of you, either you are angry/hurt by us or us by you… I want to send the BIGGEST apology your way… Reguardless of how the cards were delt to us, IF we were in the RIGHT place with the Lord and walking by the Spirit, we would allow God to move in and do HIS thing, instead we took offenses left, right and centre and figured that we had to defend God and ourselves and in doing so, caused more damage to ourselves and to all of you… So, if any of you are out there and you want to mend our broken relationship, message us and let us know how YOU feel we let ya down and how we can right them. I want to also name a few people ~ I KNOW I KNOW… some people will say “Don’t throw this up on facebook” etc, etc… But listen folks, it is time to get real… its time to put our hearts on the line and show everyone what we REALLY are made of and IF we really mean business with God… Pastor Tim Acey, Rachel Acey, Mike Derkach, Rachel Derkach, Matt Gardner, The Amundrud family, Frank & Deb Leschinski… To all of you, I want to apologize on our behalf. No matter what we felt you did (right OR wrong) we should never have allowed ourselves to get bitter and angry and resentful… I ask for your forgiveness and for the opportunity however possible to rebuild that relationship between us. We NEED each other…

To any women out there that are reading this… If you have ev er been hurt by me, mis-led by me or involved with me in a physical way… I am SO sorry. I wish to God for my wife’s behalf that I had kept myself pure and honest for her… I grew up a man who looked at women as objects instead of treasures… I wish I had been more careful with the relationships God gave me through my life… I want to apologize FIRST and FOREMOST to my beautiful wife, Tara, for not upholding you as high as I could. For not loving you as I should sometimes and for letting you down when I have… You are the love of my life and I will always strive to do you right and to love you and to honour you before God…

For anyone who has ever heard me speak unrighteously, foolishly, stupidly, etc… please forgive me… I have been hypocritical myself through the years on this issue… No I don’t think it is heaven or hell when it comes to your speech, BUT it also shows your true colours….

Basically, what I am getting down to folks is that I need to right my wrongs and I want to press on in my life and do what God is calling me to do… Reach young people, older people, hurt people, etc… Our hope in ministry is to reach people who have been hurt and walked through some red h9ot fires in their lives due to choices, friends, family, churches, etc… I TOTALLY believe that everything we have been through has been allowed to prepare us for what God is calling us to…

There is so much more I COULD say, lol but some of you have said you love hearing from me, but it is always so long, I apologize, BUT when and if you take the time to read, and listen with your heart, you will ALWAYS learn something… be it about me, through me, etc .

I lvoe you all and look forward to rebuilding relationships that have been broken between myself and you… and tara and I and you… Contact us, call, write, email, facebook, text, etc… whatever… Below is all of our contact information… keep in touch and lets rebuild/build and army of people who will band together in love and embrace each other, weaknesses, strengths and everything else… and see something FINALLY begin to break in our communities…

If you made it all the way through this… lol I LOVE YOU… even if you didn’t and skipped to the end… love you to…

Blessings,

Pastor Shaun Antle

“Dear friends, don’t be suprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. Instead, be very glad; because these trials will make you partners with Christ in his suffering, and afterward you will have the wonderful joy of sharing his glory when it is displayed to all the world.

~ 1 Peter 4:12-13

I’ve been awake since four unable to sleep, cant get comfortable with so many words in my head. So being a writer i also got up and wrote it all down earlier. It seemed to relate to yours a bit so i thought id give it to you, here ya go.

It’s four am and sleep isn’t coming easy. Something’s on my mind. No, something’s in my mind like an insect; squirming, crawling, so small you can never see it but the feel alone gives you the vision and the chills. There’s an imbalance here, within us; lately I’ve seen people I love walk down a path I can so plainly see as dark but when I ask, they say that they see light. I’ve watched the people I do still have put on layer after layer of masks, as if you can apply a personality as easy as a different shade of makeup. First I had to ask myself… “What if we all just cut the crap?” Can you imagine, everyone just being straight up honest? Considerate, but honest; I haven’t seen anyone be that way lately and couldn’t help but wonder if I ever really had, sometimes it’s impossible to tell. I had someone tell me that they “gave up the lord because there were too many rules to fallow and life’s too short to not have fun.” I didn’t know what to tell her, my relationship with the lord is personal and steady; I talk to him at night, sometimes on the way to school, when ever; he’s always listening. So I told her this, the best starting step I could think of. “If you’re doing no harm to yourself, if you’re doing no harm to others, then you’re on the right path, now just walk the road with the lord.” I wasn’t sure where that came from but, it sounded right and I realised later how true it was. It was also true in the sense that if people were to stop hurting others in every way, stop hurting themselves in every way, everyone really would be considerate and honest. Something needs to be done, to show the youth that, the pros outweigh the cons because it’s not the lord the protest, it’s the work. But the pay for this labour of love… is immeasurable. Let’s try for sleep now.

Well thats what i wrote out still didnt get to sleep after there must have been more but, i gotta get ready for school
PCE love ya

So, here I am at 5:06am… Been up since just before 4am. Can’t sleep. Tossing. Turning. Thinking. About what?

About what I see and feel God calling out of Trial by Fire… A ministry that is Real. Relevant. Relational.

Real. What does that mean. Relational. Educational. Always Loving.

Being real is being in relationships first. Educating each other on what really is going on in our lives and what Christ has called us to. At the same time, ALWAYS loving just like Christ does. NO MATTER WHAT!!!

Relevant. What does that mean? Relating Eternal Love Ensuring Victory Acknowledging Notable Truths.

We must relate to people today in a way that is loving yet in a way that will ensure victory for them in each individual situation. Acknowledging the truth of the Word of God in a way that is understandable in today’s society.

Relational. What does that mean? Reaching Everyone Lovingly And Totally, Intentionally, Ordinarily, Never Altering Love

We must reach those around us. We can only reach them with the love of Christ. We must be intentional. When we reach someone, we reach ALL of them. We reach them through ordinary ways. We cannot alter love to meet our needs. We must love as Christ loved us. Without fear. The Bible says that “perfect love casts out ALL fear”… We cannot be afraid to love and be loved. Its not easy but it is doable!!!

I know there are probably better words to match up to the letters in the above words, BUT its my heart. I’m not a poet and I know it… hahaha catch that one…

No seriously though, I’m just sharin my heart… I am in no way perfect. I have not attained anything better or more than the next guy. I just want to see us become the REAL church instead of the instatutionalized church that we have become.

We MUST be REAL. RELEVANT. & RELATIONAL!!!!

Check out Philippians 2:1-4 (Preferably in the New Living Translation)

Anyhow, lots on my mind and just needed to get a bit off of it.. Let me know your thoughts…
Not a sermon! Just a thought.

Peace.

P.S. (Pastor Shaun)

So, what do ya do when you are in a place where you feel like you are in the middle of nowhere? You feel like everything you do doesn’t matter, you have no “real” friends, everything you want to do seems SO far away and everything you don’t want to do is just right there with doors wide open… From faith to work to friends to life itself… Isn’t it funny how we work so hard to become something and yet everything we are supposed to be adds up to becoming nothing. the least of these. a servant… sucks doesn’t it? OR DOES IT. what if that IS our purpose. to become nothing and serve others as Christ served the people around him. Its like you take 0+0 and make it actually add up to something. I don’t know, but it ALMOST sounds interesting. God wants us to become nothing, a servant unto HIM first and others second. Why have we made the word “servant” such a “BAD” word? Why are we scared to put others before ourselves. Why NOT!?>

Not a sermon. Just a thought…

p.s. not that I have actually attained it myself. I HAVENT! lol

“Ability is what you are capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” Lou Holtz

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